Friday, July 29, 2011

Never Alone!

“There is someone special for everyone. Often there are two or three or even four. They come from different generations. They travel across oceans of time and the depths of heavenly dimensions to be with you again. They come from the other side, from heaven. They look different, but your heart knows them. Your heart has held them in arms like yours in the moon-filled deserts of Egypt and the ancient plains of Mongolia. You have ridden together in the armies of forgotten warrior-generals, and you have lived together in the sand-covered caves of the Ancient Ones. You are bonded together throughout eternity, and you will never be alone.” – Only Love is Real

It really is reassuring to know that someone’s got your back. Not just now, not just somewhere in the future – but almost like an omnipresent entity guiding you towards your source, bringing you one step closer to reality every single day. Sometimes when I feel lost or simply lose the faith, I remind myself of the people I have around me – I can count on them at 3 in the morning. I can count on the fact that even if I don’t speak to them for days or years, when we are re-united we would still meet and talk with the same vigor, passion and enthusiasm as where we left off.

As for soul mates – well, what can I say?! The rationalities of my existence, the heartlessness of the phenomena we call life has not been particularly encouraging. But there is this faint hope, a small flicker of instant recognition when your eyes connect over a passionate conversation, or over a heated argument, or when you are sitting next to each other without saying a word. The instant connection, the veracity of endurance makes you fit perfectly with them like the lost pieces of a jigsaw. How much ever I try to reason it out – my mind says impossible, but in my heart I know that you are all around me for a reason... so that I never have to be alone!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

The ABCs of cravings!

If you are a woman and if you are reading this – then you know exactly what I am talking about. If you are not one, well then – this is where you might wanna hop off.

There have been times when even I don’t understand the unnatural bolts of manic attacks that we women call craving! I understand the whole pregnant women scenario and even the PMSing- but leaving that aside – what other alibi do we have? Not much to go by I’m guessing. There are so many of these moments that are inexplicably intolerant. Millions maybe. In the interest of time and randomness I call them the ABCs of my cravings.

Attention. Bullshit. Cuisine. Hell Yeah!

I need to be heard. I crave attention right now – I am the clingy bitch, deal with it. I want to stay up all night talking, I wanna go for a drive at 2 in the morning, I want a nice surprise! I want details noticed, moments captured and I want someone to crib to. Well the revelation here is the fact that I am the exact opposite of this under normal circumstances – but the sudden bouts of attention craving dare can’t be stopped.

Coming to Bullshit – this is no easy feat to pull off. But, I do it with quite ease most of the times. I crave trouble… I crave bullshit in life! In a couple of days when things are linear and stress free – I seek out troubles for the love of drama. Most things can be dealt with in their own sweet time, but during the mania zone – everything needs to be dragged out of the box and thrown at my face. Why I do it myself you ask? If I knew the answer then I guess I would have attained nirvana by now.

The last one, I can deal with. Well most times. Apart from the midnight snack & sweet tooth alerts – I am doing pretty well with this one. I have a mental contract nowadays. I give myself a weeks' notice to satiate the culinary desires. So even if I feel like having a grilled chicken wrap with bell peppers salad on a Monday midnight – I’ll make sure that I get it within a week. ‘Cos if I don’t, then it becomes a bigger issue for me. The food crisis leads to an emotional crisis, which evolves into a cranky-ratty vicious cycle of ‘I hate everything in my life’ situation. See, food, interestingly is related to every emotion, occurrence and consequence in my life. So, I take cautious measures not to let this one get out of control – for my own sake, and for the sake of the poor souls around me.

So, there you have it! The ABC’s of my not- so great days.

Until the next rambling…

Cheers my lovelies.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Just one more step

Blurred lines between the spaces I call reality and surreal

Merging together as I take one step at a time
Careful, cautious yet steady
Unfamiliar territory, yet surprisingly consoling ordeal!
Sensing the blind side: sanities with perilous
One more step, just one more to take
Rising in hope, faith relived…
Took some time to get here, took some time to get serious.
Billboards of signs, knocking on reason
Faith over mind, and mind over high opinion
Insanity of life cycling through cause and effect
Might be a rough shot...but it’s still worth a good bet.
Caught between real and surreal
Tipping to the edge and then coming back
Life has a grand plan, only if we hold its hands.
Give me moment and let me breathe.
Take it all in and let out a long silent sigh
Mark the date and time, and keep it wrapped in my mind
A digital polaroid of me
.... at Peace and finally at ease.
Random silly little boxes of charm
All for me, every last bit
Keeping the faith and building it up some more
Longing for more of them to come
'Cos nothing really gets better than this.