Not-So-Much Resolutions!

This year I'm coming up with my non-exhaustive top 10 resolutions for the year and as you must have guessed, these are not resolutions at all. I can give them some pseudo-intellectual name such as 'wishful intents for 2011' or 'reflective objectives'- but I refuse to do that and will call these the Not-So-Much Resolutions AKA Nosolutions of 2011.

1. I will stop trying to exercise- it really hasn't helped me like Ever! so I am officially giving up on exercise! YAY!

2. I will start watching my favorite cartoons again- by hook or crook, I'm trying to locate all episodes of Dexter and Powerpuff girls. Any help IS and WILL be appreciated! :D

3. I will stop fighting with my boyfriend- I think our relationship has matured to a great extent over the last 7 years, and shouting/fighting is just too childish an activity to indulge in any more. From now I am taking on a new direction and my new motto is 'Silent Treatment'. In the words of Lily (HIMYM)- I will 'silent-treatment your ass to the ground'-- It's a wiser option than trying to think of cut-throat comebacks and rational reasoning while fighting.

4. I will stop cribbing about my age on this year's birthday and accept Age with Grace!! bwahahahahahaha... :P

5. I will try to invest more time on Impulsive Decisions. I know its a paradox, but eh! What the hell. I really mean it- I am not necessarily as Impulsive a person that I wish to be and since I am not growing any younger, I would want to indulge in abrupt and impulsive choices as much as I can.

6. I would want to continue digging out inspirations from random and mundane realities of life unlike "some people around me". No, I am not a creative genius, I just refuse to be a Royal cribber this year. (Disclaimer--This Nosulution comes with an expiry date of two weeks!)

7. I will continue to be entertained by Royal cribbers, who crib about their life/job/sleeplessness/lack of metabolism etc and include the fun-facts in my blog. I have realized that if they don't complain, I don't get enough energy and enthusiasm to write!! :P :P

8. I am going to fold at least one item of clothing everyday and neatly stack them in the closet-- Ok Ok, scrap this one-- (terms and conditions**)

9. I am officially giving up on the famous 'everyone's favorite' new years resolution. I am not ""trying to be a better human being this year"". I think I am too old to change myself and too old to try and act on vices. And Yes! I love air-quoting * evil grin *!!!

10. And, last but not the least- I will try my level best to breach all communications with crazy people in my phone-book who expect me to call them every now and then to ask how they have been or to say 'awwwww I miss you so much'. I realized that if I am scared to call them after a month just because they will ask me why I haven't called before and eat my brains out- I better not call them EVER! I think I should be able to call my friends even after 6 months and pick up where we left off. If friendship is not unconditional and effortless it's not worth calling friendship. So I have offically given up on Non-friendships this year.

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That's all for now, hope to come back with better Nosolutions next year and beat the shit out of this year's top ten :D

A Treasure Chest Of Memories! Part Two..

When I wrote the first part of this I knew I had to go on to the second chapter. There are so many times in life when word limits hold you back and this time I'm not settling for it. These memories are intrinsic to my existence and the person that I am today, so I would try my best to put them in words. Right now these thoughts and visuals are just like a warm fuzzy feeling that's wrapped into the comforts of my 'happy place', and trying to put these in words would be by far the most difficult thing to do. Now, here goes my hundredth attempt to write this piece...

Today, I am attempting to write about a place where I grew up a child. This post is not about a person, but about a place that has given me so many wonderful memories. They say you never know what you had until you lose it, and that's exactly what happened to me. When we finally waved goodbye to our old almost empty house in North Calcutta, we knew that we were leaving behind a part of us in every corner of that house. The balcony where we spent so many evenings waiting for the ice-cream cart, the terrace where we spent our afternoons dressing up kittens, the small semi-terrace where we hid while playing hide and seek and the stairways where we jumped from just to create a small scene, and the stair-wells where we planned our childish master-plans.

When you grow up with a house full of kids your age and three floors to run and jump around you tend to have an unparalleled experience we call 'Childhood'. There is something special about the houses in North Calcutta- I will try to break it down for the layman- The houses are actually so close that you can jump from one roof top to another and that my friends is adventure at its best. I remember the time when we found a hidden roof at the back of the house which had no side-walls and we knew we would get into a lot of trouble if we attempted jumping on it from our roof, but we did it anyway. The pure fun and excitement of standing on a roof with no boundaries is ecstasy for ten year olds.

We had our signals too- when parents were fast asleep after lunch, we would wait for our signals to come out of our rooms and go cat hunting! We'd bring by any and every kitten we could find and play 'dress up the kittens' on the roof, and of course there was the much coveted 'lock and key' which till date remains my top favorite game to play!

The best part about the house was the fact that there were so many places a child can hide- playing hide and seek used to be our forte! Every time any of us would discover a new hiding place we'd be ecstatic, by the end of it we were pros at it!

Knowing that the generation after us will never get a chance to be raised in such an environment makes me realize the opportunity we had. The time we were truly kids, not trapped into an apartment playing board games or watching TV. We would go out and play and have fun- the house gave us our childhood-it gave us our freedom and let us behave as kids should behave; it gave us something to remember and smile about after 20 years!

When I still think about the afternoons spent with my cousins on the roof trying to figure out the best strategy to jump on to the next roof, or sneak upstairs to get a taste of Grandma's pickles, it brings back a smile on my face, and it will continue to be that way for the rest of my life.

The house means something to each of us, each part of this house brings back memories to each one- to my father, it brings back memories of his childhood escapades, to my mother it brings back memories of early married life, to my cousin sister- the balcony brings her back to finding the love of her life, where she stood waiting for him every night, to me and my first cousin it brings back random fights and weird dance moves on the big corridor- where we sang our non-sense and danced around irritating others while at it!

Letting it go was one of the hardest things to do for our family, moving on was harder. But now that every one is in different parts of the city/country/world- I am sure we all go back to that one common memory that will continue to bind us together for life!

Breather!

So many times I blame myself of putting myself out of ideas. I think I take my ideas for granted most of the time and then regret not acting on them later. It's a manic madness and a vicious cycle, yes I agree!

So, now i'm putting a blanket rule for all the ideas in my mind (yes! even the stupid ones). The Rule is that from now on, I give each of my brainchilds at least one chance. No matter how big or how insignificant they may be, they all deserve care and need to be nurtured.

And how exactly am I going to achieve this? Well, given that I get only about *this much* free time every day, I am thinking of scalable ways to literally "hold on to that thought".

I am going to take a 10 mins breather every day, YES! everyday, when I sit and just do nothing. I wont check my emails, nor think of smart status updates, nor will I chit-chat with friends. I will give myself just 10 mins everyday, to rejuvenate my brain-cells. Once I am able to reach that calm state, I might be able to better document my ideas and act impressively upon them.

Not a bad idea for a New Years Resolution eh?!! What say!! :D :D

Un-Chained!

This innate urge to break out of bonds will lead me to the path of no return someday. The classic example of head vs heart displayed its true colors on a Sunday morning as I lay awake in bed thinking of anything and everything. How much of *terms and conditions* can I take in life? Even if they lead towards a path of the much glorified comfy life- the question is: how much of that life do I crave?

What if you are not that one amongst the millions of comfort seekers who are conditioned to seek and desire the comfortable life. What if you are a loner, what if you are plain selfish?! With my bucket list staring me in the face- i have no resolve to put it in the back-burner anymore. After all, we do have only one life and only one chance. The desire to break free is so overwhelming that it engulfs every moment of my chained existance. Everything seems like a sign, every sign seems like my very own moment of glory!

Maybe it's time to be selfish, maybe its time to put on some shabby clothes and fade away into the place to where I belong the most!

The Bucket List!

So many times I have randomly messaged you, telling you what a waste I am!

So many times, I haven't -and quietly announced, Yes I am!

Running short of time, running short of life..

Quickly scanning my head, and running short of a plan!

Where my heart takes me, I dare not go alone.

"Long sand dunes", "where it all started", "myths of mysteries" and so many more.

Let me pull up a map and find, close my eyes and point to all of those!

My bucket list is ready and so am I!

My bucket list is ready & now it's time to fly!